I’m too tired.

There’s no more strength in me.

Few steps back.

I feel comforted somehow. 

I know that I am never alone. 

you know the feeling you get from completing a 3 hour A Level paper, you walk out of the examination hall feeling relieved but your brain hurts like a mother.

You feel empty, as if you have poured out all your knowledge into the examination and now there’s nothing left. you don’t want to think anymore and all you want to do is just lie in bed, watch mindless comedies and sleep.

That’s what I feel like right now. 

Totally can’t concentrate on stereotypes essay cos of the 7 hour session I had with 3219 peeps today.

Think I’m falling sick too cos the head is stuffy and kind of throbbing and the nose is drippy.

A) Should I try to force and edit what I can in the condition I’m in now?

or

B) Sleep now, wake up hellishly early tomorrow to edit with a clear mind?

WHAT THE FUG I JUST FOUND OUT ITS DUE ON TUESDAY.

Definitely B now.

Sleep. Rest. OMG. 

receiving that message. first of its kind. thank you for the effort. (:

I appreciate it. 

can’t stop beaming now. read it while working and suddenly my step was lighter and I became bouncier and chirpier to customers. 

First day at Udders was pretty awesome. Maybe cos it’s still quite slack ah. though my scoops look like shit and damn ugly but I learnt new ways to scoop! (: We’ll see how when I do the evening shift on Friday and Sat night!

Totally gonna be superwoman this week. Must squeeze in time to study omg shit tmr’s tutorial. okay I already finished it I just need to finish one more question. okay can do this. like totally. okay very positive now.

just gonna carry on like this the whole week and I’m set to conquer the world. Funny how just one message can lift up my entire day. Had a horrid monday morning and afternoon was just dull. but yes I’m happy now! okay, going to sleep happy.

okay, what am i still doing here? yes goodnight (:

Yi Han, where are you my dear. I need you now. I need you to calm me down. I need you to talk to me and comfort me and give me the right words to calm my heart.

I need your sense. Your ability to teach me and guide me. I need you to hold me down when I float up and lose myself. I need you to be my rock again. Everytime I get confused I always go to you. Always in you will I get the right words to make things better. 

Why aren’t you awake now. ): 

Seriously, that was scary. If that msg had been from you, I will freak out at this moment. FREAK OUT.

okay wake up wake up wake up. okay jeanny seriously, relax. chill. calm down. breathe.

I want to cry now. 

can make my knees go weak by being around me

can make my heart beat faster by looking at me

can make me look like an idiot cos I’m smiling to myself everytime I receive a cute message

can break my heart cos I’m in so deep

can only be D.

hmmm, you know, I kind of can’t believe that you do like me. =/

*insecure + inferiority complex jeanny*

if someone gets jealous over your relationship with someone else, does that mean that someone likes you? 

I hope so? Though why would that someone need to get jealous at all I don’t understand cos there’s no one else for me except for that someone. And we both already know that I’m the person who likes more. 

shall sleep. think later.